It's been a while since I last blogged, and that last entry wasn't very wholesome either - and I apologise for it. One, I can't help my Daniel Craig obsession, and neither can you. Two, I was probably too tired from the big day with Melissa. So, please excuse me.

I haven't been getting very much sleep lately. For the past 3 nights, I've been getting around 5 hours of sleep. Last night, I slept at 4.30am and had to wake up the next morning at 10am to get ready for lunch at our cousin's place. Then the mornings before that had me started and ready to go in the early hours of the morning - to me, early hours means roughly 7-8am. I just got back into the whole tennis thing again, after a week of being sick from a flu (which only took 3 days to recover from!) and 3 weeks of allowing my finger to recover and ease in pain. At this rate, I'm never going to reach the tennis Senior 1 team.

I'd invited some friends over on Saturday for a BBQ and get-together. It was the usual deal - we sweat it out on the Xbox, slaying each other on the Beaver Creak and Ascension maps of HALO; some of us break it out on the guitar, displaying each other's mad skills; we all break it down on Singstar, slowly losing out voices; we eat and gossip; we play more HALO, and while we're at it, we engage in a debate on putting Ivan on one team while the other three verse him (we eventually lose. All the time). Let's say I've never played so much HALO in one day. And on this day, I had the best cup of coffee. Ever. Espressos are the love.

I'm slowly running out of time. Time to do things. Time to start my homework. Time to complete it all. Time to shop. Time to visit friends. What's more is, I won't be back for another 6 months - during the next holidays (which are in April, Easter time), I will be in Japan on the sister school exchange program. While I could be sitting at home, possibly studying for the HSC, I would be somewhere in Japan figuring out how the hell one has a bath in a communal bath. I can't imagine being away for so long. It feels so difficult, and I feel so reluctant. I will be doing the very same after the winter holidays in June/July. I have to study during the spring break for the HSC, and in order to do that, I believe I need a clear environment without distractions.

I believe this year will be a very long year, but we'll be the judge of that this time next year. Right?

I had to clean up my table today, you know, in order to keep a clear mind, one must have a clean desk - and while putting things away, I stumbled across boxes and drawers filled with old belongings. I found old photographs that date back to the year 2001, old medals from Club Med (during the days when we'd go 2-3 times a year), old medals from my AISM days, old cut-outs from newspapers and magazines. It's pretty amazing, how all these years, these things are still here and in tact. I found diaries, and lots of them. Most of which date back to when I was 14 or 15 years old, which is almost 3 years ago. I read some of the things I wrote, and I'm just amazed at how much I've matured, changed, grown-up. It's such a bizzare feeling, when you look back at old things you've written, or created.

I've finally started maths tutoring. I have to go twice a week, and in the morning too. Sighs. This really means I have to get into it all. And now.

Reminds me, I have to do some exercises on Derivatives as a Limit before tomorrow 11am. I won't have time tomorrow because I have tennis at 8am. Goddamn it, I'm so out of it.

Cheers.
PS. I fscking need sleep. I need it so bad. My sister claims that I've got "insomnia", and that's why I can't sleep. But then again, all these young 14-year-olds claim they do, when all their problem is adolescent emotions running through their minds before they go to bed. So?

& turned on the lights; 22:54